I am busy working on my presentation for Friday. I almost forgot to write an entry.
Today, I sadly announce that I did not win the Powerball lotto thing – I bought 5 tickets.
Today, I’d also like to announce that SexyPants is now owner and president of a brand new company! He’s very excited and I’m thrilled for him. i just hope that he can get everything worked out with SOS before he starts (first of the new year). The job is not even in this city, so again, I think there is going to be some adjusting.
I will be completely honest here. I don’t mind if it takes up a lot of his time for a little while. I have a lot to concentrate on, and with all that’s gone on with us over the last 9 months has taken a serious toll. As thrilled as I am for him, I’m ready for some independence between us.
I’m ready to focus on other things for a while. Ready to focus on my own career. Ready to celebrate HIS new career from a distance. Ready to have things settle down with SOS (fingers crossed). Ready for a bunch of other things.
*EDIT It’s the middle of the night and I can’t sleep, and I feel like I should explain just a little bit more about SP’s situation just so I can get it out. It’s not that I don’t want to be with him. It’s not that at all. But here’s the reality of the situation:
Yes, the company IS out of state, but he’s going to run it from [my city]. Not optimal (well, not really for me to say), but definitely doable. Many presidents and CEOs have commuted. I’m guessing he will be in [other city] for at least a day or two a week. That’s OK. I think when he called me last night with the thrilling news I was taken a little bit off guard, and what I wrote out quickly was my knee-jerk reaction with the reality that he now OWNS a company and will RUN this company that is not where he/we live. The fact of the matter is, he’s done this several times before. In fact, he’s owned companies that aren’t even in this country, let alone state. He knows how to do it and he’s done really well with it.
But he will certainly have to get his son situated. Look, the kid needs 24-hour supervision. SP has a master plan, but it’s not in place, and I don’t know if it can be executed the way he’s expecting. I will say this much, when SP puts his mind to something, he makes it happen. So I know he’s going to be able to do something workable…might not be the best situation for a little while, but I have the confidence that he will make it OK.
So it’s not that I don’t believe in SP – not that at all! I mean, I said all of this on Sunday when I said I think it will all work out. I still DO think it will all work out, but again, perhaps not “traditionally”.
And yes, I am fine with the bit of distance. It should be a healthy distance. A distance that will allow me to reconnect with myself, my friends, my family. We have spent the last 9 months trying to get back together and work it all out and it has been intense. Very, very good, but intense. What I want is a bit of a return to us being comfortable going and doing our own things.
I am EXTREMELY proud of SP. There’s a lot to be done, but I know he will/can do it.
And I’m proud of myself, too. These are all good things, even if they are transitional and not the easiest things in the world.
I hope I cleared some things up. At least I feel more comfortable with what I said above.
Oh, and in case you were wondering, Grumpy Cat from previous entry is NOT my cat. THIS is the Old Tan Man. He is laying on top of my homework. I love him X 10,000,000, so in that respect, I have won the lottery. See his open sore? It’s been like that for years and the surgery would be too aggressive for sweet guy. So he lives with that wound. Poor sweet baby.
OK…we are going to sleep now.
And we love you!
XOXO!
GS + TM
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