Oh hi there. Im back from doing a million things and feeling a million feelings. Guess I should just spit them all out here.
My New Gig: First things first, you are probably wondering where we left off? I was in the process of negotiating my new position and a brand new company. I had left it with the fact that I wanted a Director title but was offered a Senior Management title. Well .after long and thoughtful consideration and even further negotiations and explanations, I decided to take the Senior title. I know, I know that Id promised I wouldnt take anything less than what I want, but I do want to write down the plusses of doing it this way:
Mele Kalikimaka: Hawaii has come and gone and it seems like a million, trillion years ago since I was boarding that plane, nervous as shit about accepting the new position, drinking on the 8 ½ hour flight (*hic*), and then forgetting it all for a while. SexyPants and I had an absolutely, deliciously wonderful time in Honolulu and then Maui. We spent a week relaxing, drinking, taking walks, whale watching, sleeping, talking, laughing, shopping, eating and generally being happy tourists.
We are the absolute best traveling companions no doubt about that. I dont think we ever stopped laughing and carrying on the whole time (except when we were sleeping). We seem to always be on the same page when it comes to where to go, what to do, how to do it. It was super low-key, and yet we had as much activity as we both wanted. Some highlights:
Sandy Hook: On the day we were flying back from Hawaii, the Sandy Hook shooting occurred. What can I say that hasnt already been said? Ill tell you. The second I heard about this shooting I thought about SOS. Im sure youre not surprised, but it was so jarring as the story unfolded. I still find myself googling the hell out of Adam Lanza, desperately searching for I dont know, some kind of answer to what he had been thinking. And the only thing I can think of is that he, Adam = SOS, SexyPants son.
Sure, its a lot more complicated than that. But there are so many similarities that it chills me to my bones. And of course, its not right of me to say to SexyPants that I feel like theres some kind of pure evil lurking behind those vacant eyes, what I can do is say I do not want to be around it.
And the worst part of it all is SOS comes back to stay with SexyPants tonight.
Iwill not be around.
Yes, theres more to this story and Ill unfold it in future entries. Its weird and scary and there are NO answers. And SOS seems to have everyone at the loony bin snowed as well as his father. I will watch from a distance and let you know what happens. Lets just say that Im very unimpressed with all mental health facilities Ive now had experience with. Can you believe this Ive been on the inside of FOUR, including a maximum security forensics facility that houses criminally insane? I will not go to any more. I dont trust them. Im done with them.
Truly, I dont know what to say about it all. I cant wrap my brain around any of it. And as of this moment right now, SexyPants cant give me a solution, so he and I may not be seeing much of each other in the near future until he figures it out. I dont mind going and doing things with SOS every now and then meals, outings, etc. But I will not spend the night at SPs house when SOS is there. He freaks me out too much. He also doesnt sleep and I can hear him tiptoeing and poking around the house.
More to come regarding SOS, Im sure.
Dashing Through the Storm: Christmas was lovely, yet a bit nerve-wracking. Had a wonderful time at my parents place on Christmas Eve. Got there in the morning and spent all day and evening. We hung out with some neighbor friends and took walks through the neighborhood, good meals, church with mom and dad and then opened gifts that night. OMG, SexyPants got me the most insanely gorgeous Michael Kors blinged-out watch. INSANE. It is stunning! And he spent much more that wed agreed. I just googled it. Here.
I ate like there was no tomorrow, and lounged in front of the fireplace watching some Christmas movie with my head in SPs lap while my mommy rubbed my feet (pure, pure heaven), and peacefully drifted off to sleeeep. So it was off to bed pretty early for me and SP (he joined me in the guest bedroom) until .
THE LOUDEST, MOST OBNOXIOUS ALARM went off next to the bed! I thought that SPs aneurism was going to burst! It was one of those national weather service alarms explaining that there was a winter storm warning on the way. Really? Really.
Turns out, it was the beginning of THE horrible storm, and we were flying out in the AM to go visit SPs family.
Long, long story short, we somehow made it to our destination. But it wasnt without a shiz-load of drama. And alcohol. Lets just say that once we flew through the tornado-infested, black skies of death and were finally on the ground, I kissed it.
And then I drank a bottle of champagne at SPs sisters place! And THEN all was well!
Man, SexyPants family is sweet as pie *southern twang* and I love them, but they can talk a mean storm and they can be downright NASTY behind each others backs. And I have to say that I was extremely happy to hear SP defend his brother-in-law when his mother laid into his character on our drive to SPs parents place (BIL was not within earshot, thankfully). And I chimed in on one thing when I probably shouldnt, but Id had enough to drink so I felt I dont know, justified?
Anyway, a bit of family drama that SP handled so tactfully. I was truly proud. I do have to say that SP has made some tremendous strides. Sure, we both have work to do, but he does so many things well. I have a lot more faith that he can handle certain situations much better than hes been able to in the past. I am sometimes just blown away.
Next day we were scheduled to fly back home. But the weather made it impossible. All flights were canceled and all flights the NEXT day (yesterday) were completely overbooked/oversold. SP and I quickly put our heads together and did not delay decision.
We drove. Rented a car and voila! Roadtrip! For something that could have been disastrous relationship-wise (argument/stress-related), we had such a great time. Got snacks from SPs mom and hooked up the Netflix in the car and listened to Christmas movies and comedy. We snacked and joked and had a ball.
Im increasingly happy with the way we handle adversity together. Yes, we are facing the biggest issue yet with SOS coming to stay (at least for a while), but Im curious to see how we both handle it, so Im sticking around to see! Good news is, Im not stuck in the same house. I have my sweet place downtown and I know how to use it!
OK. Better run. Much more, but my fingers are tired and I need to do a couple of things before I skip out of the office early. Ive MISSED YOU so much!! Ive been reading on the fly and trying to note here and there, but I should be back for a while!!
XXOO and tons of love,
GS
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