I am supposed to be rehearsing for my FIRST GIGANTIC presentation at my new job. It’s tomorrow at 3, but I will be attending other meetings during the hours leading up to mine (starting at 8am), PLUS I have a conference call at 5 and then a dinner at 6. UGHHHH!
I don’t know what the fuck I am doing, yet I am launching SEVEN new product categories tomorrow. That’s thirty brand new items that I will be showcasing and I’ve had 18 days of experience.
Of course, these projects were begun several months ago (in fact, one group of products was almost launched last year, but it needed much tweaking), but goddamn I am nervous.
But 7 of these items were whims that the CEO decided to just toss at me at the last second.
Did I mention that I don’t know what I’m doing?
AND! I have 5 salespeople breathing down my necks for other projects to be completed at the same exact time. I don’t even know how to prioritize.
The company has also acquired two more companies in the last month and my boss is heavily involved in these acquisitions, so has not had time to meet with me more than 15 minutes here and there. He’s flying all over the country and racing a million miles an hour.
I am lucky in that I have my product managers to lean on heavily, but I’m finding out that my right hand woman is doing a little throwing of me under the old proverbial bus because she wanted my position. I didn’t know this when I took the job because it’s quite clear that she’s not leader material (and I was told that she didn’t want the position), but it’s becoming increasingly more clear every day. She feeds me tidbits here and there, yet…some of the things she gives me seem to hurt slightly more than they help.
Got to figure all this out.
Anyway, gotta go practice.
Meanwhile, my lover spends his weeks in Cleveland running his new company and spends the weekend tending to his special needs son. I miss him tremendously, yet do need this time to focus on work.
It’s all just challenging. Guess I got what I wished for, eh?
I’m sorry I haven’t noted back much. Just know that I love you.
GS
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