“All I want in life’s a little bit of love to take the pain away.”
Ladies And Gentlemen We Are Floating In Space, Spiritualized.
As you can tell, this is giong to be a upbeat entry.
Basically, one of my housemates has just got a new girlfriend. They met on Friday night. Now don’t get me wrong, I am happy for him. I get on really well with her and am glad that he is happy.
So why do I feel down?
I dunno. It has been two and a half years since I last had a girlfriend. I’m starting to feel a bit lonely. I have felt like this before but never with this much severity.
What is it? Am I jealous? I hope not. As I said I get on well with her and I hope she likes me (she is cooking for the three of us tomorrow).
Maybe it is just lonliness. This has combined with the time of year to increase the feeling of being unloved.
I know that my family and friends love me. I mean a different type of love. The one where I know I would do anything for the other person and miss them loads when we are not together and know that they feel the same. The “I hurt when they hurt, I smile when they smile” (to paraphrase Buffy) type.
The type I have not had for 2 1/2 years.
And to think that a lot of diarys have people complaining about their partners. Here I am complaining about not having anyone.
Anyone got any advice?
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