Today is/was Sindy's birthday. I met her in January 2025. For the duration of our 8-month friendship, I thought we had gotten along pretty well. Sure, we had a few disagreements, but none of these were major or even remotely catastrophic. She was one of those people who absolutely loved her Starbucks and every now and then, I'd bring her a beverage of her choice in the morning. If you ask me now, I have no idea what she liked to drink there (because there's no reason for me to continue to commit that sort of thing to memory), but it was not unusual for me to frequent the local Starbucks upwards of three times during the course of any work week. She also had me watching the series, Bridgerton, on Netflix, as she not only thought that somehow I'd like the show, but she also believed that I spoke like the characters on the show did. I finished the entire series, at her request. It only took me a few weeks. I guess it also gave us something to talk about, which was another reason I didn't mind tuning in. Before she had me watching the show, I hadn't been on Netflix in a long time. I know that there's supposed to be another season on the horizon, if it's not already available, but I'll be damned if I'm watching that. What's the point? The series was all right, but it's nothing that I need to delve back into or dedicate any additional time to anymore. Why the change of heart, you ask?
Well...
Without warning, Sindy decided back in September 2025 that she wanted nothing to do with me anymore. In seemingly making this decision out of the blue, she stopped talking to me, as she effectively severed all ties with me. I have not heard from her since. My guess is that she had gotten upset with me somehow over something (I have absolutely no idea what may have set her off) and rather than talking to me about whatever the hell it was that was bothering her, she just picked up her toys and went home. There was never any chance at reconciliation. I suppose it bothered me for a few days, but eventually, I had to let it go. Why choice did I have? I'm not going to beg or even ask nicely for someone to be my friend. Fuck that. Friends, especially women, will come and go. Why dwell or devote time and energy to the ones who don't want to rock with me?
So that whole Sindy situation fizzled out and died a quiet death.
Done deal. Case closed. Have a nice life.
I have zero clue as to what the hell happened, but as I said earlier, we haven't spoken since last September. Having said that, I did not bother to wish Sindy a Happy Birthday today. I briefly thought about reaching out to her by text message. Then I came back to my senses. Why in the fuck would I do something like that, wish this woman a Happy Birthday after all these months of silence? You can't just cut me off completely and otherwise disappear and then expect to receive any of my attention. I think I'd be better served doling out my attention to those in my personal circle, people who I would deem deserving of my attention and effort.
Sindy's a year older today. Big fucking deal. The rest of us will have a birthday at some point this year too. As a general rule of thumb, I tend not to celebrate or commemorate birthdays of people who aren't my friends. Why should I exert the effort?
As far as reality goes, I worked for a few hours today, which also happened to be the observance of Martin Luther King's birthday and is a national holiday for most of the U.S. King's actual birthday is on January 15th and if we're doing the math, last Thursday would have been his 97th birthday. Being that it was a holiday today, I didn't feel like applying myself too much at work and I don't think I did. I did just enough, I suppose. I'll be back at work tomorrow morning, early anyway, so I figure I could take most of today off and rest up a little bit. I know that I ought to take more time off to recover and recuperate. It looks like today was one of those days.
I don't know what the work week will hold, but I know that I'm going to be busy again. I don't want to say that I'm swamped, because that sounds so dramatic, but I am definitely drowning at work. Still, I haven't sunk yet. I'm still treading water.
I dunno. That's all I have for now. We'll just go ahead and leave things here for now.
I'll be back at some point.
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