1-10 in scarlet_dragon

10 days into the new year.
Today was an interesting one.
My brother in law called husband yesterday and I could hear him on the other end of the phone saying to the husband that he spoke with their Dad and his Dad was under the impression that we weren’t going to the wedding. Husband said probably not. I’m sitting here hearing this all after we said we’d discuss it like a day or so prior to it. I thought we were going to be going. Husband has no desire to because he can’t sleep in hotel rooms and yada yada yada. I don’t know. I mean it’s for what a few days? I don’t know. I might still go but that would mean rental car, hotel, wedding gift, food and gas to get there, tolls etc. It’s a lot. My son will also be in school and so I’m not sure if taking him out for 3-5 days would be a good decision.
I’d also have to drive myself. but I could tell my brother in law was really disappointed about it. I don’t know.
I need to have this discussion with my husband not while he’s in front of a computer and not while we are laying down to sleep. Which is when most of the “conversations” take place.But it’s another thing stacked on my to do list and needs decided quickly because rooms are filling up at this place I guess. I don’t even know where it is. If it’s anywhere close to NYC I’m out I ain’t driving there to save my life.
So yea. There’s that.
I haven’t been getting much done around here. I kick myself daily for not feeling like I do “enough” but even I don’t know how much is “enough”.
I decided to go to the bookstore this afternoon. The last place I ever need to be. It was a rainy day I should have just stayed home and read.
Anyways I was walking around in there they said they had two books I was looking for. I found the one the other I asked about and it said in stock but I don’t think she wanted to go look for it so she said no. I know the online stock numbers can be wrong but whatever. I don’t need anymore books. I haven’t touched one in months and months. I can’t seem to get my brain to settle into one. Anyways their check out line took a long time I finally walked over to the Starbucks to get a hot coffee and I then had to wait again for almost 20 mins because the women in front of me wanted to order some special drink not on the menu with all these substitutions and this poor guy was the only worker and theres a line at least 7 people behind me now.
Anyways she’s like I don’t want to be like one of those people, well you are Karen, you are. She then asked about the gingerbread syrup for the drink if they still had it and they did. He finally makes this thing etc whatever. I order my standard drink caramel macchiato off the menu and I take my drink to the car and drive off. Halfway to my next stop I take a drink and realize he put the gingerbread syrup into it. So ruined the entire drink because I don’t like gingerbread. I guess that’ll teach me to take the drink and not try it before leaving the store.
I drove then to Walgreens and threw the entire Starbucks in the trash. Inside I was looking for a few things, they were out of stock on all the things. But I did find Cotton Candy Alani Nu again so that kinda gave me a mood boost. I was waiting in line at check out and woman in front of me questioned the price of something and the employee was like it wasn’t that brand that was on sale. So the women didn’t want them then …well the employee was like I need a manager for a void. As loud as could be the manager a few rows back in the store shouts Oh My God. Sure I dont know how many other times she’s had to do it that day but wow. The women in line felt bad. this manager got an attitude and I think I might be done going there anymore. This isn’t the first time I’ve witnessed this manager acting rude. I was in there a few weeks ago with my Mom and this same thing happened again. I’m like be angry at Walgreens system for not allowing someone to void without a manager to do it. Anywho....
I decided to go back home after that. I think I need therapy for a multitude of reasons but one of them is for better coping systems for dealing with other people’s emotional states. I can be having an ok day and then some stranger out and about puts me in a foul mood.
I need to start at least getting some things done around here. Like it’s all starting to pile up. I tend to pick something up and then place it back down instead of dealing with it. So now I have a mess of books, papers, to do lists, random knick knacks, half finished craft projects etc you get the point. I need to quit it and just deal with it finally.