New Year in scarlet_dragon

Hey all. I’m still here. My mother left yesterday morning, so I’ve been trying to just get everything back into working order around here. I always tend to hate this time of the new year because all the relaxing and eating and just not really doing much comes to an end and life is expected to just continue back on course.
My kid’s 17 birthday was 2 days ago. He’s starting to get kind of snippy at me because he goes back to school in a few days and I know he hates it but it is what it is. I find it hard to believe he’s only got a year and a half left of HS before it’s over. It’ll be here before I know it.
My Mom’s visit went ok. Sometimes I get so ticked off at her negative attitude about things sometimes and then I feel bad for talking shit about her to others but sometimes I don’t understand why she finds something to nit pick about everything. We went for a walk a few times while she was here and she’ll just start pointing out random things and talking shit about it. Anyone could hear her and I’m the one that lives in this neighborhood, so I’d rather her not talk crap about people when they can hear.
Why does it matter if someone’s car is missing paint? Or a kid parked their bike somewhere? I don’t know if this is an age thing or what but it starts to just drain on you.
I was telling my husband that this might be the last year where we could realistically expect her to drive to visit us. It’s just a long drive 7 hours for someone who is 70 to be making. I don’t worry about her getting lost, it’s just a long drive by yourself.
My son will also get caught up in drama and will come to me and say all the things that my mother mentioned to him while they were together in the car. Like he loves seeing me get upset about it. I try to not react and we’ve had this talks with him before. He needs to tell her to stop talking about it if it makes him uncomfortable or he needs to keep said information to himself because it gets me worked up.
Anywho other then the usual things it was an ok visit.
We’re 4 days into the New Year so I can’t say how it’s really going right now. By the middle of next week is where I need to start buckling down on things and start focusing on myself.
I put off just about everything while my Mom is here so mentally I have about a million tasks that need done but now that my son’s birthday is past I just have to mail out my sisters gift and then February is two more easier birthdays but the most stress is done now again and I can feel little easier about things.
Like I’ve said before I don’t know why I go over the top with stress over the holidays we really don’t host anyone and we don’t have 18 million things to do but I turn it into a whole big deal. This coming Christmas might ideally be one of the last ones my kid spends here depending on where life takes him so I know I’ll be trying to do all the things again one last time. I kind of wanted to take a trip with him this summer just me and him before he starts Sr year. I’m still debating it.
I want this year to finally be about me. I feel like I’ve given everyone else 98% of me and I have nothing left to give. Being about me being visitings the doctors, getting the tests, putting in the work etc. So I’m working on some systems right now to hopefully make all the other things easier to manage.
I have about 98% of the holiday stuff put away. I just saw a table runner I forget today and the outdoor Christmas tree is in the garage just not put away in the corner where it belongs and covered. And the outdoor lights need taken down too. Aside from that things are returned to normal. I have about 4 Valentines Day decorations up but that’s all I have and I never buy or decorate for any other holidays other then Halloween and Christmas.
We also have our old tv sitting In the garage we got a new one for the holidays. The old tv is 10 years old but still works fine and is 55 inch so Im sure someone would still want it. That was a whole huge annoying process reloading apps onto it and I’m trying to do it and my son keeps butting in with random information that I don’t need and my mother kept doing the same. It was like trying to deal with two children while setting up tech. I almost lost it and walked away.
I will say that us (husband and I) getting big purchases for the house is probably the best use of our money. Like maybe plan for a fridge for the house.
I have a bunch of old tech that needs wiped and recycled so that’s on the list too. So many things on the list.
Anyways, I could keep this entry up for days but should probably go pay bills since I’ve ignored that for weeks.