12/21 in scarlet_dragon

4 days until Christmas? Crazy. I know I say it a lot but sometimes the years seem to fly by and then somedays just seem to sit at a standstill. I do wish I could enjoy the holidays more, but for some reason my whole adult life I’ve been wrapped up into making it a stressful ass time.
I just know I’d come to regret being this way when my only kid isn’t at home anymore. All the should have done’s would have done’s etc.
No one can guilt themselves more than Mom’s.
I’m currently trying to figure out if anyone in the same company of doctors I use has any openings for new patients in the next month. I’m guessing no. I’m really angry that the doctors we’ve been with for almost 5 years shoveled me off here and there and finally just left me with no real great options other then to fend for myself and son. One of the places closer in town won’t take kids 18 and under. My son will be 17 in less than a few weeks. So that’s a no go I guess.
I don’t know or I try and start all over elsewhere and see if they have any openings. The thought of doing all this again makes me want to throw up. I’m so tired of this song and dance with American healthcare. I know I need to see an ENT and I’m kind of debating if I can set something up without needing a regular doctor first.
Anywho…
Things continue ever onward.
I forced myself to do a few light chores yesterday. I still need to clean up the spare room since my Mom will probably be here in 5 days. Yikes.
I wanted this computer room cleaned up too but didn’t get around to it. Or haven’t yet.
My son still needs to clean his bathroom up because that is also the guest bathroom and it’s currently a mess in there.
He’s on winter break now.
I must have woken up around 7am or sometime it was still kind of dark out. I force myself to not pick up my phone or then I don’t go back to sleep but I laid back down after going to the bathroom and didn’t wake up again until 9:30am. I haven’t slept in until then in probably a good 10+ years.It felt nice.
I have a Walmart return I’d like to get done but I might just wait until after the holidays. I’d like to avoid there at all costs.
Got another update on the cars we’re looking for and now it’s Feb they might be in..Like I’m tired of this song and dance. I think once Christmas and entertaining everyone is over I’ll sit down with the husband and we go over options. We went to the dealership in April 1 of this year were told October was the wait time for a new car we were looking for. Ok fine we put down like 300.00 to save our spot. Oct comes and goes so does November and now it’s February? I”m tired of not having a car my 17 year old will have had his license for a year now and still not drive on his own. If it isn’t one thing it’s another.
I see that the weather here will be 60 on Christmas. I don’t think it got the memo to wait on the snow we had 3 weeks ago until now. I hate having warm Christmas. I don’t know. I know the weather won’t be like it was when I was a kid anymore. Guess just have to get use to it.
I also haven’t made much headway on transferring over OpenDiary stuff. I have a month left. I don’t see myself getting it all done, unless I sit down now and spend a good few hours doing it. But I don’t want to miss out on doing other holiday things like coloring in my Christmas books and watching Christmas movies. I guess I look at all these things like tasks that need to be done and that’s not how I should be doing it. Like if I complete all these things I can be holly jolly. And we all know I won’t lol.
I sold another item on mercari and got a few different things donated to people so that’s out of my house. I started pulling items off my Mercari that have been on there for years and just donating it. I’m tired of it sitting in my house.
My son decided on what kind of cake he wanted so I got those things. I also picked up Christmas Day stuff we’d need. Next I need to suss out the list for New Years Day pork and sauerkraut stuff and my husband wanted to make duck while my Mom was here.
I do love the haircut I got. I really like the girl who does it and I find it worth every bit of the 65.00 I pay for it. I do think I will try getting my haircut more often than twice a year now and maybe keep up with it every other month I don’t know. We shall see what the new year brings for us.
I know I have to start planning like Senior photos this summer and things like that. But it’s not a today thing I should be worried about yet.
Anywho. Think I’ll go try working on some more copy and pasting and then try and clean up an area of that house that needs it.