I lost the information for this online journal and finally found it again :D
Updates:
My therapist stopped taking insurance and I had two failed therapists since then.
I’m still trying to find a fitting medication.
My parts seem to be dormant or I integrated.
Lots of lifestyle drama, but I’m not letting it phase me.
Let’s call him D. Cap like my ex. Lives near where I did with my ex fiance. We’re both in the lifestyle but also want vanilla…It’s not perfect and the tarot cards are all over the board. I know us dating is effecting others-but that’s on them.
I had been looking for a rope top, Dom, someone to Netflix and chill with, someone local…all those thing. And this person picks me of all people…and he’s all the things. It’s so early… a month and a half…but waking up to him after we didn’t even get to that part of sexual intimacy yet…just feels right :)
Made gingerbread houses with mom and Jen yesterday :) Then made cookies with him. Got triggered when he hadn’t finished cleaning his fire arms when I came over. One in particular made me think of Timmers but he was kind and caring and we got past it.
Without a good therapist now, I’ll be blogging more often. Hope my parts return but on the other hand, I feel more stable with them either being repressed or integrated.
love
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