Topic: Right now, I am afraid of ----- because ------.
I am sitting here trying to think of what I am afraid of and in the midst of trying to figure it out it came to me.
I am afraid of putting my all in and loving someone with all I have and building a life and a family with them to turn around and just be left later on down the road. Yes, I understand I have an abandonment wound I am still healing, but I want to spend my life with my best friend who knows me in the most real and rawest ways and still loves me anyway and I would like to be that for them.
I am afraid of having everything I have ever wanted and not believing that I really have it and then self-sabotaging it because I don't believe it is real because trauma I am still healing through and then it is leaving and I am left alone.
I love myself but I want to spend my life with my family. If i had the choice I would choose my family over and over and over and over.
I guess its a risk we all take. Some people leave.
Some people also stay.
Namaste.
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