I need to get back into the swing of things. I’ve been kinda just lazing about the past few days. I did our laundry today though and I guess I dropped of Nespresso pods that needed recycling at UPS along with a Mercari purchase this morning. So that’s good. My issue with selling something is then I immediately go and fill up the space with some other new widget.
I stopped at Kroger afterwards because I noticed my son had powered through almost all the sparking water I just put in there not even 8 hours earlier and that’s what he takes for lunch. I went in there for just that, managed to spend 75.00 somehow. They of course didn’t have a single case of bubbly because it must have been on a sale so I just picked up some other more expensive stuff. I then went overboard on junk shit. I need to stay away from food when Im on my period.
I’ve known this before but it really is sinking in how much I eat out of boredom or to think it’ll make me feel better. I wasn’t particularly hungry after a sandwich from lunch but I ate a piece of chocolate that I just got that isn’t good and then like 5 donut bites which then made me feel kinda blah but instead of leaving well enough alone I then made coffee too. Since I didn’t have any thing morning. Problem is I’ve been putting whipped cream and creamer into my coffee so yea now I feel really bad.
I need to knock it off. I had had half a bottle of a protein shake this morning in hopes of seeing if I could start cutting out morning breakfast. I’m not sure if I want to do that or maybe just cut out lunches because I always feel uninspired during lunch. I dunno. The internet is full of 10000000000 health suggestions like eat this, no eat that, this is good for you, no it’s bad. Women need this, no that. I’ve done this to lose 76 pounds and the trends go on and on and on. I don’t want to just do shit wily nilly without any results if I’m going to be serious about it I need to make changes to things that are curated just to my body. So I’m not sure who I need to see to do that. Someone who runs blood tests and such I’m sure.
Hours later:
Had to drop son off at work and then went to dinner with my husband. I keep trying to not get too in my feelings over all the changes happening here. I seem to try and bring it up with the husband and he isn’t a very good support system in this matter. He thinks it’s great that our son is working, and while I do too I’m just sad that all the things I use to do with my son have now taken a backseat. I know he won’t be here with us forever and that makes me sad too.
I can be understanding and still sad right? I know at his age the last thing I wanted to do was hang around my parents. It’s just tough. I know I need to find some other outlets to focus my time and energy.
Life continues on like usual.
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