The hormones and emotions in Life

How do I explain my crying to him? That nothing and everything is wrong at the same time. That my hormones have betrayed me and it's just part of getting older. No, I'm not mad at you, no I'm not trying to start something with my comments and "attitude". Yes I want you to hold me until I stop crying and no I don't want you to touch me. I'm hot and cold all in the same moment. My clothes and skin are too tight, there is too much noise even though the house is quiet and the TV is on low. I can't turn my brain off and I can't remember what I was saying or doing. Yes, we've had issues but that's not why I'm withdrawn. I just have moments when I disconnect. I'm overwhelmed and exhausted despite getting a "good night's" sleep. I don't recognize myself lately...not physically, emotionally, mentally, or spiritually. There is nothing about me that feels like it used or like it should. I'm not trying to be difficult when I can't decide I just truly don't know what I want and don't want to have to make decisions. I make decisions all day long at work and I don't want to have to when I get home. I want to be babied but also be independent. I know I'm a mixed bag of emotions and it's difficult to know what to do around me. How do I explain that to him when even doctors don't agree on the big change and symptoms?