we broke up in i wish i told you this

it was very much needed. and i know this was going to come eventually. but man i can’t believe almost 3 years of love is over. it wasn’t easy at all. and i always had hope we would emerge victorious from every petty argument. but this was the first time you told me you were tired. you would always say you still loved me and you want me to stay but this was the first time you didn’t. i feel relieved we’d finally get the peace we both needed but my heart just feels so heavy. i can’t believe i miss you. it feels so lonely without you. it pains me to see photos of us on my gallery, and your flowers are still here in my room. i still have your valentines flowers hung upside down. but i took the photobooth polaroids off of my wall and it hurts. i tried reaching out to you but you just left me on read, so i guess being friends is also impossible. it sucks not having you here. you were the only person i was comfortable talking to about literally anything. it sucks because i lost my best friend. and my cats lost their dad. we both did everything we can but this was just for the best. i hope one day we both get what we want and deserve. maybe one day i’ll stop crying.