9/05/24 - Court, bills, gofund, oh my! in Daily Ramblings

Today i had court about my home. Emotionally draining day. I lived in a mobile home park all my life, up until recently. Ive been staying at a friends house. Hes helping fix up my house so when its appraised ill get more. As it is now I’ll get nothing, there’s so many things wrong with it!
We got a court date in oct! im so happy about that! In that time i can get a lot done and i can clean it up. Being depressed had a great deal of how that place looks. Broken things though started yrs ago when my mom was alive. it was just me and her and we couldn’t fix stuff. Then she died and it was just me and my dog Sandy. My fulltime job kept things up and running there. But the old problems were there and i couldn’t fix them. It got worse there after i met my boyfriend. When we found out he had cancer stage 4 esophageal… that’s when the depression kicked in. i didn’t want to lose him. i was in denial. i didn’t think he’d actually die. i took care of him and i would do it again in a heartbeat! i loved him, my baby bear :)
i had to take off work the last half of 2022 to take care of him. When i came back after he passed my job had less hrs for me. I couldn’t pay the lot rent on there. Trying to get another job was hard! i went everywhere no luck. Couldn’t pay for my car insurance so i lost wheels.
its been bad. i’m trying to get back on my feet but its such a hard struggle. I feel glad for the few ppl in my life. They have helped with what they could in their own ways.
i even made a gofund that i reluctantly made out of desperation and feeling like i was in a giant black void. It has been gaining a lil traction as of late thanks to 1 online friend! He’s helped a great deal. i’m glad for that gofund. It has helped! i have the goal set high because of all i owe and to get some wheels too. I’ll add the gofund address at the end of this post in case anyone would like to contribute. i do see the light at the end of the tunnel so to speak now. Thanks to the ppl around me, my job now starting to have some hrs, and that gofund! Thats a big part of it that gofund. Any contributes no matter how small are very much appreciated!
Anyway, i’ve started to do things to help with my depression and anxiety. I love writing and journalling. I need to do this more. I love art and drawing. i am just an amateur but i love it. Also adult coloring. Reading is tops on my list too. Thats hard to do a lot with me because i get eyestrain at times. But i do when i can.
i have Barney Miller on the tv near me. I’m going to post this and then watch the end of that. Thanks!
https://gofund.me/118fba97