Today def went into a weird but completely fantastic direction. I messaged Ashley’s sister cuz I wanted my book Eragon Back. She has had it forever and my books are sooooo important to me. So I met her at her friends apartment and she gave me my book back. We smoked. We talked for awhileeeeeeee. I missed her so much. She is doing ok I think. She says she misses me too. I have so many feelings for this.girl it is truly shocking. She can.actually handle my bullshit. Ahhhh i could talk about her a lot but I should not. She is worth a lot of words. I.am happy I have the journal to.keep my head on straight. In reality. Or thoughts of her would leave my head in the clouds. Whats best about her is I can leave her be and care for her. No need try and control. By that I mean I can remain her friend and not try and make her my girlfriend. Nor will I get jealous if she does find a bf in the future. I value her friendship too much to risk it. I know she cares about me and its a comforting feeling I do not want to lose. She makes me a better person. Of course if one day we decide to be together that would be ok I think :) its always been Ashley.
Great night. Gonna sleep well.
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