Hear me out. I looked to my little Icon to the left with my name, location, age etc. Something struck me. My age. I'm only 18 but I don't really feel it. I feel much older. Please don't mistake me to be an arrogant person. But hey, I don't really care what you think.
I have lived quite a dense life in such a short time. It's all been concentrated you see. These past couple of months have been the calmest of my life. For such a young person I believe I have a lot of stories to tell. Much more than the average 18 year old.
I looked at my age. 18? When I think of a typical 18 year old I definitely do not think of me. I think of a reckless, drunken, sex-driven maniac. I don't know. I definitely had my drinking days. And even drug days. I still do sometimes! But even those days are ending I feel. The days of me acting crazy are over and have been over. The need to go out and party every night has vanished for me. 18 seems so vulnerable and naïve. 18 feels so soft and ignorant. If I feel this way now how will I feel when I'm in my 30's or something? You see I value time by myself. I thoroughly enjoy silence and calmness. I am slowly starting to value family time. I work my minimum wage job and go home. I go home and works on writing. Trying to become published one day. I'm like a retired old man trying to accomplish old dreams. The path my life has taken already is an odd one. I am very curious to see where it goes from here. I know with more and more experience writing I will get better. Writing everyday I will get better.
I feel much smarter, and wiser than the common 18 year old. Again I do not believe saying how you feel is being arrogant. I'm just stating the fact. My whole life I have been worried about coming off as cocky. I believe arrogance is a very ugly trait. It's a turn off. But I am now realizing my potential. I have this sense of certainty that I am going to be successful one day. Sooner than I think. I have a strong belief in myself now. I never had this and it feels so good. I believe I am capable of anything now. My confidence has completely reversed from 15 year old Adam to 18 year old Adam. I feel like from 15 to 18 I am two different people. I have changed a lot. A whole lot.
Today I had work from 3-9. I thought I worked till 11 so it was awesome to see that I was wrong. Work I was quiet. just worked. I was pretty busy.
I came home watched some of Sons of Anarchy. I worked out. Ate a lot of food. I was hungry for some reason. Showered. Boring day. But a lovely day.
I'm off tomorrow and then I work the rest of the week. So I am going to sleep a lot and relax. Work out. Read. Write. Its gonna be great.
I think that's it. Yeah.
Number 21.
Do you prefer being around women or men? Do your closest friends tend to be men or women?
Good question. My very best friend in the world is a girl. But this is a tough question because I don't have many other friends. I am pretty much a loner.
I usually prefer to be around women. But only slightly more. My whole childhood I was around women. I tend to have roughly equal girl and guy friends though. I am friendly towards everybody so I usually get along with both sexes.
Its usually much easier to talk to a girl about serious problems or issues in your life. Usually. The only way I would tell a guy something serious is if I were very close to him. Like best friends. I don't have to be super close to a girl friend to tell her something. Not sure why this is.
At the same time I have to give guy friends credit. If they know I am stressing about something they won't bug me for information. They will sort of sense it and back off or help you get in a better mood. Its weird. Hard to explain.
I didn't do that good of a job answering this because I'm a loner really. But oh well. I talked about it at least.
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