Banned in Self Destructive

My website I used for character storage and lore building banned me for having kin-characters based off an anime. I’d spent hours and hours coding profiles, making things nice and pretty. I had 300 original characters on there, and now it’s just gone
I feel. Empty
I want to self harm but I also want to just shut down. I’m.. I’m tired. I can’t do this shit. It’s always something. Broke my phone, health issues, lost my insurance, can’t get my insulin. I’m just. Done