“Be careful of what you wish for,” is true of me. I have lived the situations I wished for multiple times. I am lucky in a weird way. Everytime my wish is granted, I promise myself not to have stupid wishes again.
It’s funny but I took conscious random breaks and my family never questioned my decision. I always manage to give the most reasonable excuse. Staying at the same place and doing the same things gives me an uncomfortable feeling. There were multiple occasions, I started questioning my existence and life.
People reading my words may think I am suffering from depression but it is not like that sort of thing. I enjoy the feeling of uncertainty and fear of putting myself in a new environment. I am aware that I have made many decisions that cost me dearly, financially as well as mentally. Whenever I look back at those times, I don’t regret it but feel a sense of accomplishment in living life on my terms.
This time again, I took a break, went through a phase of self-doubt, questioned my existence, worth, value, and felt dejected, and lost. Now, I am done with it and starting again. I am ready to rediscover myself again. I hope this change in my career and lifestyle will keep me entertained enough not to take a break again.
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