You know I am also an alcoholic. A lot of things that bewilder people who do not share my disease are confused by the thought processes of an alcoholic.
John is a sponcee of me who had attained 1 1/2 years of sobriety. About 6 weeks ago on a normal day without any pressures or tragic events the idea came to him the a beer, one beer, might even improve his life. So he had one.
The experiment worked so the next day he reasoned if one was good then two had to be better.
Three weeks passed and he managed to avoid me; to miss most AA Meetings or leave early from those he did make. He was drinking prior to making the meetings he did.
He stopped shaving, washing and doing laundry. He missed appointments in his business, Mobile Dog Grooming. There was no sense in changing to go to bed when he could just sleep in his clothes on the couch.
Then it really caught up to him and the shakes came onboard. Tremors lead to
anxiety attacks.
He called me and I took him to the Local Hospital one Sunday. They ” observed ” him for 8 hours and sent him home with a few mild anxiety pills.
Monday night he called me and I went to the Police Department to drive him home after a D.W.I. arrest.
In this brief period he managed to
Drink so heavily that he had severe D T S
He was unable to sleep properly a/c anxiety attacks.
Lost 25 pounds ( not a good thing ) son had to go stay with his Mother where the son hates to be.
Son attacked Father with kitchen knife.
Son also hid another knife in shower to harm himself.
Spent all his money.
His work (only) vehicle is in the Impound lot gathering storage charges.
Has been in Locked Ward for treatment for 8 days.
Will have to rebuild business but hard to understand how to operate a Mobile Dog Grooming business if he loses his license for 6 or more months.
Last night John confided in me while I was visiting him that he is deathly afraid that within 1/2 hour of being discharged that he will drink again.
The Mind of the Alcoholic.
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