I often find I take years to write back, to fully take a step back and look at my life. I have forgotten you again, my old friend. I have gone through many trials since I’ve last written; none worse than what I experienced in 2022, thankfully. Simply the aftermath of 2022.
I have regular, severe PTSD now, not C-PTSD because I haven’t experienced one tragedy after another in quite some time. In fact, I’ve been in EMDR/Trauma therapy for a few months now. I’d been on a waiting list for a lonnnng time before it finally was my turn to receive the care. I’m grateful for the therapists that I have currently. The flashbacks I’ve been having since my stint in prison have been nothing short of horrific and incredibly hard. That being said, I have a wonderful support system with my therapists, boyfriend, friends, and my brother as well.
Speaking of boyfriend :) I’ve been with my current boyfriend almost two years now–it’ll be two years on February 19th. He’s such a godsend, honestly. He has been helping me while I’ve been out of work since March of 2024. I haven’t been able to work due to my mental health and luckily, I’ll be working in no time. I foresee myself working within the next few months, thanks to my wonderful therapist and also my boyfriend as well.
I’ve cut off any friendship that was not doing me any good and have been quietly thriving. There are months of depression here and there and some loneliness…but nothing close to what I’d experienced last year. I was quite hopeless last time I’d written and this time, I’m full of nothing but hope.
It has been rather difficult without any friends nearby, to be honest. While my boyfriend is working, I’ve been very lonely and sometimes get into my head at times. I do get to call my best friends here and there; my brother calls occasionally as well. But for the most part, I am on my own when he’s at work.
All in all, I am doing fairly decent. And I’d like to say, cheers to 2025. A fresh start.
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