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Why Do I Clean? in Mommy 2014

  • Sept. 24, 2014, 2:48 a.m.
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Ugh, I seriously doubt my sanity when it comes to cleaning my own house. With 3 kids, (4 if you count my husband, which I do) a dog, a cat and a handful of fish, how on Earth is my house ever expected to look clean? Never mind actually be clean?

At this very moment, my 1.5 year old is trying to get into the cat litter box. I mean really?

A Clean house? Or a Lived-In house? It seems like it’s always one or the other.

Never both.

So I guess this is a common problem but it doesn’t make it any easier.
We have nice new(er) wood floors in our living room, which look great and I love, but show every little dog hair and baby food crumb that lands on it. So I must sweep the wood floors (the whole first floor) every single day. Ugh

Then of course, there’s the numerous toys that litter the floor at any given moment.

I recently went to my friends house. She has one daughter and another on the way. Her house has 4 bedrooms so one will be the new babies, one for her and her husband, one for her daughter and the other is a room dedicated to her daughters toys. Alone.

A whole room for all her 6 year olds toys means no toys in the rest of the house, except of course some in her daughters actual room.

It makes me jealous of course. I know we don’t have enough money for the life we have now, never mind getting an additional room simply for the kids toys but it sure makes life easier for her to clean up!

To add insult to injury, her house is spotless, even though she’s 8 months pregnant, and it looks gorgeous, like really gorgeous. She has really good taste and has painted all her walls. The themes in each room are very apparent and again, gorgeous.

She’s a little OCD and I told her I wish she could come to my house and make it as beautiful and as organized. I was serious. Seriously joking....is that possible? Man, I wish....

I think the real thing I am jealous of is her amount of energy. She is 8 months pregnant, yet she cleans daily, cares for her daughter, is pregnant, cooks for her husband and does all that between being sick with her hard pregnancy. She was telling me how little sleep she gets. I was thinking, how can you have an immaculate house and invite my family over for dinner if you’ve been throwing up all day and have no sleep? Is this possible?

Sounds a little gross when I put it that way, but that day she invited us over for homemade lasagna and I was blown away by pretty much everything from the moment I walked in the front door.

So, I think she is the energizer bunny, a happy one at that, or I am just lacking in general energetic functions.

I know my depression takes a lot from me but even my husband mentioned something to me the other day. He was saying I sleep odd hours and I should get more done during the day.

This here is not a rant on my husband about how he is at all. This is more about my lack of energy, I guess, since I really needed that kick in the butt he verbally gave me.

My first thought is to get a better sleeping schedule, which I have been attempting. I remembered why I got into the groove I’m currently in. I stay up late watching tv until I pass out. This leaves no time to think and think some more. My mind tends to run off late at night and doesn’t let me sleep.

I can literally lay in bed for hours, thinking depressed thoughts, not falling asleep. Doesn’t matter the hour or how much I got done that day.

My husband says to just fix it with smaller remedies like not watching netflix in bed, not eating at all before sleeping, doing breathing exercises and muscle relaxation techniques.

He is taking this new class, where he gets these ideas from, and I’m like, Really?

Ugh, whatever. I have tried and AM trying to make better sleeping habits. Okay.

The next idea I instantly have it to take energy pills. Well, I am highly skeptical of any pills these days.

I recently got two infections so I started taking my multi-vitamin again. I also take Niacin once a day bc I’ve done my own research on this particular pill and I believe it works. Plus there’s zero side effects (for me, even though for others it offers energy - ironically enough) so I don’t mind taking these two pills everyday.

But even these two pills I just recently started taking again. It took me a while just to work up to them! I can’t see myself trusting taking more pills than what I’m no now unless prescribed (aka forced) by a doctor. So energy pills is a no go.

I think it comes down to will and optimism to get things done. Do I have that? Absolutely not. How does one get that?
Some people say they like the effect that a clean house has on them. They like seeing things clean and they feel accomplished.

Well this is not the case for me. While a clean house feels nice, sure, it stays clean for about 5 seconds, if that. I will clean up the same exact areas/things every day, sometimes multiple times a day. Nothing stays clean for long in my house. So the effect of a clean house? not happening.

I do ask my kids to clean up after themselves, but enforcing any cleanup rules, is harder to do than just cleaning it up myself.

I know, I know, there’s the whole Long Run thing but it’s all blablabla in my head right now.

So will power to clean up something that will be dirty again in half an hour, or a day? not happening either.

My husband tells me he wants the house clean when he gets home from work each day.

Right now that is about my only motivation, but even today, that hasn’t been enough. I am watching 3 children (usually 4 with Sam’s bff constanly over) all day. I have my attention divided all the time. It’s hard to complete tasks. Not to mention throwing in there making dinner with a 19 month old in my arms.

Well, I ‘m sorry this is all one big complaint but I guess it is just how I am thinking. So now that you can see how I think of cleaning my house daily, how do I go from where I’m at now, to an energetic and happy cleaner?

From reluctant maid to chipper sprucer-upper? (totally a word, I just made up)
From angst-ridden mess cleaner to carefree spritzer? Clever name creativity juices are now depleted so I simply ask, how do I become a cleaner instead of a whining cleaner? lol.... simplifying it makes it seem so....simple. But it is just the opposite. ugh.

Know anyone who is good at organizing who wants to also clean house for me, for FREE??? hahahahahahaha, that’s a laugh


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