This whole balancing act with the insulin, diet, etc. is not going well since I am no longer working. I finally called for an appointment with Lynne and saw her today.
I feel weak and dizzy most of the time. I am tentative in movement, as much from not being able to see as from this whole diabetes issue. Nothing I could eat sounded good and I ate I am still confused in my thinking.
Lynne taught me more about administering insulin and the need to be moving, not sleeping, during the day. I am to not count carbs since I cannot seem to eat when I am. I am to eat normally without overdoing with carbs and sugar. I am to call Lynne Friday to report in. She assured me that if I can just hang on til Friday, I will feel better.
There is no life in me, no enthusiasm, no zest. I am merely waiting, for what? I don’t know. I really, really just want it all to be over with, all of it. I see no reason to fight to extend my life if I miserable, and I have been miserable for at least a week and probably longer? I don’t know.
That’s all. I am done babbling. I will hang in until Friday praying for no pain and for an uptick in spirits.
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