And I done it again in And if you believe it to be true, isn't it so?

Well here I go, down the same perpetuating bad path. I am intense I wear my heart on my sleeve. I speak my mind and I speak my heart, I don't sit idly by and let time pass without me telling people how I feel and show them. Let me be clear on this - there are some people who come out and tell people they are fat, have bad teeth bad breath etc. and do so behind the fictious armor that they wear claiming its because they are just "honest". Lets be HONEST sometimes something's you keep your mouth shut. That's just called common courtesy. Not honesty. I have a tendency to come across way too strong with people when I first meet them, some people even think I'm arrogant. I'm just extremely confident and I extend 110 percent kidness to everyone. And in return I ask that everyone does the same. I'm upfront about this, you call me I return your call - you ask me to hang out and I cant I tell you that. I don't leave you hanging. I expect people to do the same for me. Life is too short to be selfish. I messed up with this last girl, and that's okay I accept the responsibility. I was too forward with her and I pushed the issue too much. She expressed interest in me so I said okay lets move forward with this. And I pushed a little too much, were there moments when she kind of brushed me to the side? Yeah, there were. And instead of being like aight I'm outta here which any self respecting individual should do I pushed. "Hey whats going on, things good?" I generally believe the best in people and ignore the bad, it gets me burned sometimes but it has lead to some beautiful relationships. It allows me to live my life with no bullshit no drama no sleepless nights wondering what someones thinking have I been forthcoming with them. I pushed too much with this person, I liked them yes. And I totally gave them the wrong image of who I am and pushed them right out of the picture. I feel bad because they think of me as crazy, I went too far... I was too intense. I know that. I should've reeled myself back in. I got excited! and I know people don't all live their life at 110 percent. I do I wont make apologizes for that. I wont ever stop that full steam ahead! But I can't help but feel bad its always humiliating and embarssing to get rejected, especially by someone whom you have intrest in. Lesson learned I suppose moving forawrd