Bitching and more pictures in My life

Aug. 22, 2014, 2:17 p.m.
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<center>I am so tired today I feel like I am going to pass out. My back is also killing me. To the point where I literally just called 8 places to find one that could give me a prenatal massage right after work. I have got to do something to take better care of myself!
With Roarik, I had stopped working at this point. I really only worked about 8 weeks total when I was pregnant between a work injury and then being put on bed rest. I also didnt have a baby to take care of/carry around so I could rest whenever I wanted. I also got massages every 2 weeks, but marion was working and I was getting a check too so we could afford that.
I feel like I am always worn out, but then I also feel like Marion is having to deal with the baby a lot more. I cant get the baby to go to sleep anymore. He refuses. He will pull open my eyes, eat my face, say mama UP UP. I think its because Im gone all day and he doesnt want to go to sleep and not be with me. This of course means Marion has to put him to sleep. I have been trying to take the baby from 5-9 when I get home so Marion can work out and relax but I feel bad he has so much. Then of course I dont have any time to myself, but if I didnt take the baby for that time than I would get to see him! Blah.
Im very glad next week is only a 4 day week then we have a 4 day weekend! Then the next week is also a 4 day week before if it. Woohoo! I have time I can take off too, but I am trying to use it sparingly. Like I only use as much as I need to at a time, because I figure towards the end Im going to feel way worse and want those days!

So im getting annoyed with facebook and people in general. After all the racial tension stuff going on, people keep posting racist crap. I had to put out a PSA that I know my kids are light, but they really are mixed and I will start blocking people even if they are family. Grrrr.

My kid is the biggest on the team, #47