You never can take the fight out the fish in A new beginnging.

I feel like I have been doing nothing but writing about the same shit.
Last Friday when I was supposed to go out with, ‘yet another guy I was excited about’, he texted me a few hours before we were supposed to meet saying basically, “I have a feeling you and I will really get along, so I wanted to be honest and tell you that I am seeing someone else right now too. I don’t want to hurt anyone, so I need to see where this goes with her first. I hope you can forgive this.”

“Thanks for the honesty, good luck”

I mean are you fucking kidding me man?

Why even start texting me at all, why even message me on that stupid site?

It’s fine.

My sister’s first serious boyfriend was Ryan Sydejko. He had 3 brothers that are triplets. I got ‘matched’ up with one of them. Random. But we are going to go out on Thursday. Even more random.

I have seriously contemplated having a ‘friends with benefits’ relationship with Jimmy. Yep. I will text him when I can’t even sit stilll, and then the next day when we are supposed to meet up, I don’t ever text him back. But sometime soon I am going to slip and give in. I am going freaking crazy.

I need a new routine. I need to go out. I need to be 28.

This entry is stupid.
Dead ends to chase
feelings to fake
new hearts to break
amends to make
They all so
afraid and safe
in need of space
but hugging that crowd
Only shake with the quake
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