So over having everything in my life, every time I think things calm down and are going well again, and then new problems (or maybe the same old problems in different form) pop up. It’s SO frustrating. I want to just have things, for once, work out the way I expect them to work out. Is that so much to fucking ask? Honestly? Suffice it to say that my husband is a true asshole. I often wonder if he even has feelings. I think he may actually be a sociopath…it seems to fit, with one exception, being that he isn’t really a law-breaker. But he seems to never have actual feelings for anything but himself. We’d tried counseling in the past, but he stopped after 2 visits bc the therapist wasn’t siding with him, and was in fact actually pointing out problems with HIM, and not ME. When he got caught fucking around on me, he wasn’t at all remorseful…he said sorry but it was obviously more that he was sorry he got caught, NOT that he was fucking my (ex) best friend while I was in the ICU.
Anyway, so I don’t actually want to go into things, at least not yet, but I’ve had a bad couple of days. I am trying to get all the earthquake crap finished (I feel like I’m getting close, it’s starting to come together…) but I have to, once it’s all back in order, re-pack each room one by one because we are going to have each wall re-done to fix the cracks in almost every wall in the damn house. I’d post pics but I have them on my ipad and I’m typing this on my laptop. Maybe later I’ll update or add a new entry with just pictures.
Anyway, so I better get back to it. Its the last thing I want to do, but apparently it won’t get done if I don’t. lol Funny how that works, yeah?
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