Loss in Moving Forward

As I’ve mentioned several times before, my best friend’s 3 month old baby died in December. Many times I thought that K would pull through it. Certainly not “get over it,” but accept it and attempt to dig herself out of the hole of depression she has formed around herself. From day to day, her emotional state is different. I have done my best to understand that, and be there as needed, but also know when to keep my distance. I have put myself into a frenzy many times trying to know what to do, what to say, what will make her even the slightest bit more at ease. I know that there is nothing, but for the past y I have tried anyway. Tried my absolute best.
This month would have been the baby’s first birthday. I expected K to be more depressed than usual. What I did not expect was for her to publicly humiliate me on Facebook the first day of the month.
I am 31 weeks pregnant with my son, Hayden. I also have a two year old daughter named Haleigh.
On September 1st, my “best friend” created a status randomly proclaiming that when she was pregnant with her firstborn, she planned to name him Hayley if he was a girl, and naming her kids Hayley and Hayden if she had twins…Even if it is true, WHY would she choose now to reveal that to the world, other than to take a stab at me for my kids being named Haleigh and Hayden?
Needless to say, I was pissed. I confronted her, and it blew up from there. After we had both proclaimed to be “done,” I could not help but find out if what she said was even true. I texted her sister, and apparently her “second choice names” really were the names of my kids. So I texted K and apologized for upsetting her, and told her that I would never do anything to intentionally deter her happiness. I told her I loved her, and hoped she could look in her heart and know I would not purposely offend her, ever. Nothing could prepare me for the response I received the next day.
She wants nothing to do with me.
She accused me of trying to “manipulate her family,” told me that it had nothing to do with baby names, that it is because no matter what feelings or concerns she expresses, I do not listen “unless it’s convenient for me.” She also claims that I put “trivial drama” into her life…I don’t even have any real drama of my own, so that part was bullshit. All of it was, actually. I honestly do not feel that I could have possibly been anymore supportive, any more understanding, anymore attentive to her needs than I have been. She has sucked so much happiness out of my pregnancy, and my life, and I continued to stick around because that is what best friends do. And in 10 seconds I found out it was for absolutely nothing.
My daughter shares a middle name with K, named after her. I have a tattoo dedicated to her son on my body forever.
And this person honestly believes that I only care about myself unless it’s convenient for me, and no longer wants me in her life. I am devastated.