Well, If you read my last entry you know we’ve been struggling with bills the last two months. It took a hit on my marriage, and my depression. We try and stay positive, we always get through it and life gets back to being good.
Well, I got news the next check wasn’t going to be all that great either. And then…
It hit me…
I’ve been feeling completely off the past few weeks. I was so off that I considered making an appointment with my doc to talk about maybe checking my thyroid as a possible problem.
I’ve been exhausted, like if I don’t nap a good 2-3 hours during the day I am just passing out on the couch at night before bed, like can’t keep my eyes open if I wanted to, passing out.
My allergies have been going crazy. I all the sudden developed allergies in over the last 6 months or so. I hate them.
I’ve felt “off” not too bad but definitely not 100%.
we went to dinner with friends about 2 weeks ago and my friend who’s pregnant said “oh my gosh, I had a dream last night you were in a car accident”
and I said “Really? I had a dream last night that I had a baby girl, and she was super little. My kids are 9+ pound babies, so Little just means she came out a more “normal” size. lol
Then, my friend said “Aren’t you the person who has dreams that actually happen?”
I said “Yeah, I do, it’s crazy, so who’s pregnant?”
We laughed, I didn’t give it much thought.
I do tend to dream things before they happen, I don’t dream much (or don’t remember) besides the dreams that are actually real. I don’t talk about it much cause it creeps me out. Usually they’re either pregnancy or death related.
I started selling our baby gear, put majority of it up for sale, only two sold, one we never used a rocking toddler chair thing and the other his walker. The swing and jumparoo never sold. I told everyone, I’m nervous cause every time I sell our baby stuff I get pregnant.
I had a wedding a few weeks back, on August 16th, I knew my period was due around then, although I didn’t mark it down. I didn’t get it for the wedding, which has happened before I think I stress so much about doing a good job at the wedding I end up making my period late, it usually comes the day or two later.
Wednesday August 20th I wanted McDonalds french fry’s, bad. I do like them but it’s rare that I like absolutely have to have them. Me & the kids went after we did their back to school shopping.
Friday I had to go get some groceries. Took the kids to school, headed to starbucks drive thru and got a frappechino, my favorite. On the drive to walmart I realized the drink didn’t taste as amazing as usual, it was kind of giving me a stomach ache. Weird.
Got to walmart and started feeling like I was going to throw up as I made my way through the store…. By the time I hit the women’s/condoms aisle it all hit me. It came together. Am I pregnant???
4 pregnancy test later…
Yes, I am pregnant.
I was a ball of emotions on friday. I cried quite a bit.
We have three boys. We’d talked about maybe one more down the Line, the hubby said when I’m 35, but I always said no way, that was too big of a gap, that’d be starting over AGAIN (We just did that with #3 when #1&2 were pretty much self sufficient (as in if I was sick they could make themselves dinner, they could pack their own lunch, they didn’t get into trouble).
I was really just upset because the last month, #3 has just been SUCH a handful. My older two were NEVER like this. He climbs everything, gets into everything, opens all locks, no problem. He is just non stop. He’s not really hyper, just into everything. And throws fits like no other. Like the last year it’s fits over everything and even over nothing. He’ll throw himself on the floor and bash his head into anything. So, the last two weeks I had come to terms with the fact that I didn’t want any more kids. I was done. I was ready for them to all be grown up and enjoy more adult life time. More quality time with my husband.
My parents are COMPLETELY against us having anymore kids. I haven’t told them yet and dread it like no other.
I know the boys will be excited, we want to tell them today, but we have to make sure it’s the right time cause they have huge mouths and will tell my parents.
My inlays won’t really care, they’ll act excited I’m sure.
Our friends that know so far are all pretty shocked.
3 kids was a lot of kids but 4 kids is a LOT of kids.
I can almost guarantee it will be a boy, that’s just my luck. Whatever, if it is we move Jax in with his big brothers and the babies room will already be ready. lol
Jared (the hubby), took it well. It was really hard not to tell him all day but he’s been so stressed over work and money I didn’t want to tell him over phone/text just in case it took it hard. He said well, there’s nothing we can do about it now so we might as well just be happy about it.
It’s growing on me. I mean, besides morning sickness the first trimester, I love being pregnant. I love giving birth, I love how my husband is with a sweet new baby. I love the way he looks at them.
Since I didn’t keep track of my period that month I really have absolutely no idea how far along I was. I know around the wedding I shot I would have been close to due for a period so I’m estimating about 5-6 weeks a lot. One to the test I took gave the “weeks” and it looks like it likes up with that.
It would put me Due in April (21st ish). I have a wedding booked for february 14th & march 7th that I will be super pregnant for. I’m sure those will kill me. 12 hours on my feet that pregnant. ugh…. I also have a wedding booked for I think it’s June 20th. So baby would be about 2 months old. That I should be able to handle. I have other weddings this year but I won’t be that far along and they’re right about when the morning (all day for me) sickness should subside.
On the upside, it’s put my husband into get his crap together mode. With having the money issues these two months I’ve felt like I’m the only one trying to find a way out of it. Now it seems like he’s finally figuring it out. He knows now he’s gotta get it together.
Luckily I have all the big baby stuff. Swing, bassinet, playpen, crib, dressers, bouncer, jumparoo, breast pump, clothes if it’s a boy. All we’ll need to do is add on a bed for Jax in the boys room, I was just going to add a side section on the older boys bed. They have a bunk bed, so I was just gonna add to the bottom which would make it kind of an “L” shape. Jax stayed in our room for the first 4-6 months, I’m sure we’ll do the same with the next baby so no rush, he’s already climbing out of his crib so the bed situations was already coming. We’ll probably just buy another dresser that matches the older boys, it was like $80 at ikea, and just stick them all together. Jax wants to sleep in their room anyways so I think it will work.
Just so, SO unexpected.
Every baby is a blessing, I know we’ll be fine.
Oh yeah, our cars only seat 5 too. Right off Jared said we need to get rid of our cars, I’ll downsize and you need a car that will fit everyone. HA! If he hadn’t traded my car in before we wouldn’t have this problem! The tahoe seated 8. They do make an attachment to put a 3rd row in our jeep. I think right now we’re just going to make due with what we have and then probably get rid of his truck and get a suburban eventually. I can still drive everyone to school in the Jeep, just with one kid in the front, we do it now anyway. The back will be tight with another carseat but we’ll make it work, or I could drive jareds truck, the back’s super roomy for two carseats. He said “well we won’t all fit in one car” lol which is true but we honestly rarely ever all drive together. We can always take two cars if we had to ‘til we got a bigger car, but Jared works mon-saturday, Aiden hates doing much of anything but being by himself and since my parents live in the same yard as us a lot of times he just stays home and does his own thing anyway, or if we go after Jared gets off work a lot of times we just meet where we’re going.
Life life life. I’m so interested to see what God has in store for us. I never expected this.
Obviously we weren’t using any birth control. We always did the natural route. Out of 10 years of me not using any I’ve always only got pregnant the day I ovulate, I can always tell when I am, this time we did it a few days before, which is a first. I mean a good 3.5 years of hard core trying for babies, we’ve never gotten pregnant unless it was THE day.
I’m VERY excited that I will NOT be super pregnant for summer! My other kids are June & july babies! I’m excited to be able to take home a newborn and not have it have to be in 100 degree weather outfits. lol! I LOVE newborns in sweaters.
Wow. Life. Wow.
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