Better? in On the Verge (maybe)

Hey, greetings to all. I am new at this so i think i’ll just get to whatever is making me write this. Well its been a more than a year since i had a break up and i was so sad but now i don’t have that sadness but i don’t understand why now i have this compulsive need to be sad again and suffer and i want people to come to me and re assure me that everything is going to be fine. it feels like i need people to tell me and i cant be left alone, or be alone. i don’t know if this is because i belong from a large family and i have always people around me. maybe i do have this need to have people around me makes me happy, i actually don’t know. now that i have moved on from things that made me sad, i find ways to be sad creating false expectations and ways to be sad and emotional. i have no idea why i do this or that is exactly wrong with me. i don’t know if me getting better is even considered better i don’t really understand what fundamentally is wrong with me.