Thabo called me last night, he said he wants to see me on Friday. I and Thabo are not friends, we are acquaintances, we come from the same village. He passed by my house last Christmas and confessed his undying love for me, although he was decent enough to let me know that he has a girlfriend, unlike the photographer lad who took me on a date whilst he and his baby mama are still together. How can I forget to mention Oscar, the handsome bloke I met on the bus while I was travelling back home from my cousin’s wedding, Oscar told me he has a girlfriend in Denmark but asked that we become an item. Shall I mention my former lecturer who asked me to be his side piece? Thing is, I am fully aware that I am not that attractive, I am not sure what these men are looking for. Am I that lowly valued in their eyes? There’s some bad omen on my trail with regards to men who seem to be deeply in love with their women but yet propose love to me. I don’t know what it is.
Let’s get back to Thabo. I know his girlfriend by the way, she’s the older sister to a former elementary school classmate. She’s a sweet girl. I did inform him that I’m not going to meet him. My conscience cannot allow me to meet up with him knowing that he has a girlfriend. The good thing is that Thabo rarely calls me, so I wouldn’t say I give him much attention.
I want what belongs to me. What belongs to me will not be based on another’s tears. And besides, this speaks much about his character, he will do the same thing to me if I agree to go out with him. It’s either he will leave his current girlfriend for me and continue to pursue other women or he will not leave her and instead, I will remain in the relegated status of a side chick. No thank you. Singleness makes more sense than this.
If there is a man out there for me, I’m pretty sure God will orchestrate our meeting. I will wait for that. Let’s say there’s no man for me out there? I believe God will give me peace on the matter and I shall not be the cause of other womens’ heartache. I am intentional about my integrity.
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