Thabo called me yesterday and asked that we meet, I declined, he said he was hurt but I was unfazed. I am a woman who knows the type of family she envisions, a family with a man who’s got his head above his shoulders, a faithful man. I am not anticipating any calls from him in the future, I am hoping that this was the death of our friendship.
My ex, Justin, sent me a text last night asking for a lunch dinner. I had had a hard time getting over him because I am the one who messed up what we had, he was truly a wonderful guy. We broke up while I was overseas. I was facing a lot of pressure from my family to make some decisions which they thought were best for me, I wasn’t wise enough to stand up for myself and what I wanted. That’s the main cause of our break up. I did own up to my mistakes and tried to make amends but it was too late. He didn’t want anything to do with me then, it felt disheartening but I deserved it. It’s a little less than a year since we broke up.
If he had texted me a few months back would have been elated and hope ignited within me that we could fix things. But I’m not. I had requested for a lunch date months back so that we could see each other for the last time once I returned home, he denied the request. To be honest, he was cold and not the man I had fallen in love with. That pained me a lot. But I accepted it as the result of my actions. Just to clear things up a bit, I didn’t cheat on him or anything like that, I was just indecisive when it came to fighting for us to reunite.
He said that he wants us to meet because he wants to face his past. I’m really. It sure how that is going to turn out. I want to give him the honor of us meeting, he deserves it. I’d be lying if I said I hope for us to get back together. I’ve moved on and made peace with myself, I also doubt he will ask for that. Perhaps he wants closure.
Anyway uuhm I think I need to go to sleep.
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