Where I Stand? in Clarity!

It has been a while thanks to a long over due mini vacation. My Cousin had a sweet 15 so I took advantage and took some well deserved time off. Im my time off it really made me realize that Im not as important to people as I should be. My dad (step dad who raised me since I was 3) is having another kid with a women I never meet and has yet to share the news with me. Everyone else in my family knew for months and he has yet to share the news with me. He told my brother who is kinda the odd ball in the family and my dad doesnt even consider him a real son. Yet he literraly tatted my name on his chest and has yet to share the news. I am not upset on the contrary I am very happy especially since he just had a gender reveal which he never shared with me. He found out that he is having a boy finally and it just hurts me to not feel important enough to tell me and include me. I keep questioning where I stand in this family and I am so over it. I just want to feel loved and I definitely feel like I could drop off the face of the earth and my family would not give a shit. I cant wait to get my life on track to where I feel comfortable and walk way from my own personal bullies. I feel like I should have a conversation with my dad and confront him but I dont know if that the right thing to do.