Even though I lost all my baby weight I seriously hate how my stomach looks right now. I don't get how it is still so big! When I had Miles I was 227lbs (omg right?) and now I am 165lbs and yet my stomach is still so damn big! Part of it is the nasty loose skin you get when your stomach stretches and you lose weight but seriously I hate it so damn much. A lot of the time I wear my bathing suit under my clothes or a spanx kinda thing that goes on like underwear and goes up until under my bra to hold everything in. I do this because it feels better to have my belly held in like this. Having it blob out everywhere (lol) makes me feel so gross. Not sure what to do about this besides work hard to lose more weight. I can't really afford skin removal surgery or anything like that and it's not as bad as people on TV shows who lose hundreds of pounds of course. Like I still fit into my old shorts that I wear when not pregnant but I just prefer to have it held in. If I don't get the skin to suck in or tighten or something soon I am going to lose it. I hate it soooooooooooooo much :( I don't get how other people are ok with this.
I have had problems trying to get myself to exercise lately and eat perfectly so I am going to get myself a Fitbit Flex today to help motivate me. I'm excited!!!! I can't really afford it but I rarely buy myself anything so whatever. I tried doing workout videos but the few I did were sooooo boring and blah that I can't see myself continuing with them. So I'm going to have to create my own exercise sequence that I can do while watching TV and the hard part is that once I'm back to work I go to work as soon as the kids are in bed so I'm not even going to have the evenings to work out. I think I'll shoot for exercising 5 days a week so the 3 nights I have off I will exercise and 2 random days that I'm working as long as I don't feel exhausted. I guess I'll do it at some point during the day while the kids are playing with toys? I don't know...man, there are seriously not enough hours in the day.
I have been wanting to start a one year photobook for Miles because I LOVE the one I made for Cody and it's such an awesome keepsake but I haven't started it yet. I want to find an online company to do it through because I usually end up with an hour free to do whatever at the end of my shift at work so that would be a great time to work on it to get it done and to have something to do to keep myself awake. Most people just end up watching TV shows or looking around on the internet or whatever.
My cold has gotten a lot better thank goodness. It's barely bothering me. Cody's seems almost gone too. It's just Miles whose nose needs to be wiped 100 times a day and he was so tired this morning he went back to sleep after only an hour of being up. I'm sure he'll be fine in a few days though.
Anyways....Cody is bugging me for a snack and I think Miles is up so gotta go!
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