Do you ever imagine life where everyone is so selfish and do not care about anyone but oneself? We will be whipping for humanity if this is true. I for one, have a difficulty to be selfish, I always care about my surrounding, always care about how people feels, it give me great pressure that sometimes I wanted to kill myself so that I don’t have to deal with it anymore. The load is too much for me to handle, i no longer able to stand alone trying to be selfless and help every one that is in trouble, only to know in return I do not get any appreciation.
Troubles troubles in my family, younger brother refused to help and told me he rather have my father dead than helping him, but he have no cock when he need to deals with things and needed my father help. He never see how selfish he is. My father called me to ask me to talk to my younger brother, and as a result he told me he will not help unless I call other relatives and borrow money from.
He have money to buy 50 euros t shirt from Lacoste and he can spends money buying shit but he will not help with my father debts that accumulate every 10 days 10%. He even took my mother’s iPad away for his business ( a gift from my uncle - courtesy of me asking my uncle to give me and not selling it off) and never bother to give back not replace a new one after his business is doing well.
I know the cost of operating business is high, but if he don’t help with my father’s debt, soon enough the loan shark will go after him. I guess he prefer that.
Why i didn’t help? I’m Now in Europe and still not working due to my constant nomad life. Only by next year I can settle down and start looking for a job, my saving? Is long gone, I’m the first child to help out, and now I no longer capable of doing so. My husband have to pay 2 houses rent and 1 car loan and on top of that supporting me. I understand we don’t have money already.
My father was so upset, and he do not know who to go to and he come to me, a daughter who once he discriminate. I loves him despite how he treated me, and I am deeply saddend after he told me the situation. 12k euro (already convert to euro) and all problem will be solve, but I don’t have shit. My brother have it but it will need 3-4 months to pay off, but he will not willing to help, because he said he will ended up paying more than 12k euro.
I want to be selfish, so i don’t have to care, I don’t have to be sad all the time and cry until my eyes are swollen. Because I feels so helpless, when I tslked to my brother, all he said was scolding me. I’m so tired, how i wish I can be selfish and forgotten about all this, but I can’t because I love my father, my mother who is so sad.
I feels so hopeless, i wants to jump off the building and die at least my father will be able to pay off the debt with the insurance.
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