i think i might be a bit in love in diary

with a guy that is 21. I am 25 year old woman, and it makes me feel a bit uncomfortable. especially because he looks very young aswell and honestly I am just afraid of what people would say to us. ( which i should not) I look very young too people tell me. Now I wonder is it just our society that taught me that its not okay for women to date younger boys (which of course is bullshit i think but you knwo those patricarchal structures are so imprtinted in all of us.) or is it actually bothering me. He seems to be a very respectful caring person, and everything I know so far from him, his ambitions, interests, goals are resonating with me. We had a very sweet and movielike first meeting, and I felt like in a movie all the time. It just made me feel so alive and I feel very inspired by him all the time. I can be soft with him as well and talking feels so easy, which is a rare thing for me. Soon we will meet again, in a foreign country I haven’t been before. And I am very excited.