Let pick up more on the present time. In the last year I have changed careers, moved in with family, health scares and the worse of all… A heart break! My relationship was far from perfect but it was true. The love was there but sadly the routine became to overwhelmming. I was looking toward the future but obviously he was not. I was a rough time! Between starting a new job after losing my passion for my last. No one could have expected what was to come. Three words … Cancer, Miscarrage, Break-up. What happen to better or worse? I guess I should be glad that this happen before we decided to put a ring on it. I was upper case DDDDepressed! I struggle with fertility due to my Endometriosis (not that I wanted to have a kid at this time) but I always wanted to have a family of my own. I know… I know Adoption, surrogacy, etc. but none would make me feel a life growing with inside of me. So to find out on the same day in the same breath that I had cervical cancer and pregnant with a non-viable pregnancy, I pretty much shut down. I was angry, scared, in pain, but numb at the same time. To top it all off..he dumps me because he couldn’t handle it. COULDN’T HANDLE IT! Talk about timing. Should I have been angry or sad?
I was neither. So, I took to therapy.
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