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Okay so just gotta say normal day n everything. I gotta do a lotta homework and I don’t wanna but I literally go back to class in like 4 days.
I stopped with father’s chance, it made no sense. He might eventually change but it feel I probable and if he did it’ll take years.
I’m defo not going to that sleepover on Saturday, sleeping out with that people is too much for me. I’m going to B’s birthday the 13th tho.
A small thing bout B, this is all idealisation:
He acts kinda close with me, like he texts me energy one in a while and he always reply pretty funny or happy even tho I’m just kinda chill and normal. My rational self says it’s just that he’s like this w everybody but I just idealised a scenario where he confesses his feelings for me and I tell him I love him but I can’t be in a relationship and then we comfort each other and become very good friends (none of this will happen and I repeat I need medical help). I’ll surely have fun tho, S, I and J are going that friday tho.
Today the girls group did one of those forms and were going out tomorrow. We have fun but I think I have to find new people since I’m unavoidably falling out that group but it’s fine, I know we will never separate completely.
On a whole duff term, I keep thinking if I’m a naturally bad person. One day I think I’m not but then the next day I picture myself like that one guy people like my friends talk shit about because he’s an absolute piece o shi.
I feel with a lot of energy today but I can’t run or exercise without dying because my body does actually hurt. I did nothing productive.
I want to sleep more if I can, but it seems like I’ll never reach those 8h.
found and lost from banana fish slaps goddamn, I’d die in a karaoke q this.
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