just about my life recently in 2022

I did date before but it was online and weird. This one is my first actual relationship. Well, it’s not really a relationship because we don’t call each other boyfriend or girlfriend. It’s like friends with benefits but without the sex part? I don’t know. It’s a bit messy. I had my first ‘proper’ kiss very recently. It was nice. I mean it’s an achievement in a way that I at least had it when I was 18. I’m not sure what else will have firsts this year but hopefully quite a few. We do say I love you to each other and it’s really sweet. But there is something off, maybe it’s just me having very high expectations or something. The intensity I felt for an “online” relationship is not there here, in an actual, fully real one. Maybe that’s good? Things that are too intense die fast and I don’t want this to end.