I really don’t want this to be a place where all it seems I do is complain and I don’t make anything change.. Seems it may be going that way without that ever being my intention. I was just really looking for somewhere private to vent. Where I knew that it wasn’t being read. I can’t keep a calendar around here let alone a diary without it being read. Some “right” people think they have because something is there with words written. Doesn’t mean it is meant to be read by YOU. You know? Had that happen my whole life. My mom, dad, younger sibling.. Even friends that would come over to hang out or sleepover would think it was okay to read my private diaries. “You didn’t hide it like most people” WTF? It’s in my room. So therefore I shouldn’t have to hide it? It is mine, and I wasn’t asked if it could be read? What about that? Shit, what about the fact that I would hide it, and y’all would still go out of your way to search for it and read it.... Ugh! lol
So yeah. That is why my page seems as though all I do is piss and moan. And hey, maybe I do. lol. I got freaking issues okay lol. Doesn’t everyone? and okay, there is a chance they will find it here. But what are the chances? How would anyone even know it was me right? That’s what I love about this. Its like I can feel it, write it, and send it away. I enjoy there there is no negativity when it comes to any of it. Shit, how many times would we all be judged by the way we write about stuff here if we said it on Facebook or Twitter.. Eek. I’d rather not.
It’s not like I can’t say it to their face either. Because 90% of the time, I have and it isn’t even anything that I would care enough to go on and on about. Just some things.. You need to vent about. Not talk about you know? Just need to say out loud so it can be over and done with. Sometimes you get caught up in emotions that aren’t rational or real for that matter. So why take it to someone and hurt them. I’d rather write about it and deal with it. If I can’t deal with it, I obviously take it to them. I don’t know. Guess all I’m trying to say is I am not always piss and vinegar. I do enjoy things.. And I’m just happy I have this place as something just for me..
My little secret..
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