Oh no in Stuck

Here we go again.
I know I can’t be the only one.
He’s in my mind yet again.
I don’t like it.
Why can’t you just go away.
I wish I could move on with life already.
Like you did so quickly.
This time it was a song.
Our song.
Cold War- Iayze.
I try to listen to that song.
Everyday, same outcome.
you= in my mind.
Why do I do this to myself?
I tell everyone Im okay.
Im not.
What are they going to do.
Pity me.
Tell me ” don’t worry sweetie everything will be okay”.
You know what shove that up your a-.
Heard it all before.
I try to pass time alone.
Big mistake.
Just gets me thinking about the past.
Which is why I hate being alone.
I always have this false hope.
That one day we’ll find our way back together.
Yes we’re back on that topic.
I’m a teenage girl.
There should be no surprise that the main topic is a boy.
Moving on.
I need to stop.
It hurt when you weren’t excited to hear from me last week.
Maybe it’s a sign.
I’m now blind when it comes to those type of signs.
I seen you happy.
I saw you changed your hair.
Wonder why.
You seemed fine without me.
Ouch. Hurts. Sucks.
If I had one time to go back I would make things work.
Better.
I miss it all. I try to make myself hate you.
Hoping that would make you leave my mind.
I was wrong.
I don’t know what to do.
I guess I have to let time handle it.
Maybe during that time we should talk about how everything fell apart.
Yeah? I think yeah.