MORNING SADNESS in diary

How come I wake up feeling so drained, it keeps me in bed forever. I just can’t convince myself to start the day, if I have no responsibilities. I feel so sad whenever I wake up, so tired and drained and overwhelmed. It takes like one hour until i feel ready for the day and feel my motivation for living is back on. t’s really a struggle at the moment, to wake up and to feel drained. I knew what would actually help - excersize but I struggle to volve it in my days. But I do feel better the last days at least.
It’s my birthday this mont, on the 16th of June and I want to leave this annoying, selfpitty behaviours in my past. I am turning 25 now and I think this is a age where I should already be selfassured of what Life is about ( I mean nothing but at least know how to act in this weird nothingness) and not feel like this little girl anymore. I want to be and also to be seen as a headstrong woman.