I've been a lazy PBer lately. I'm working on getting caught up, though!
My cousin Vanessa came out to visit for the week, so that was fun. Jan, who has been out here helping my mom take care of my grandma, is her mom. It was really nice getting to hang out with her. We also spent a lot of time with our other girl cousin on this side of the family, Danielle. She just turned 16, which is bizarre as hell to me! I still think of her as a little baby :P I'm honestly amazed by how well the 3 of us get along, despite the age differences. Vanessa is 22 and I'm 27, so there's definitely quite the range. We did quite a bit of shopping because Vanessa really needed new clothes and we weren't organized to plan doing other types of things we would normally do, like go to plays, the zoo, etc. I'm also kind of a problem with the whole not being able to eat at restaurants thing and they didn't want me to feel left out. We still managed to have a lot of fun, though :)
She invited Aaron and I to come visit she and her boyfriend (also named Aaron! So confusing! But spelled differently...I think it's Aharon...) in San Diego. I'm kind of undecided about it. Aaron and I would like to take a little vacation sometime in the fall/winter before I'm back in classes. San Diego would be lovely when it's getting cold here but...I dunno. Driving there would be kind of awful. It's about 30 hours. We could probably do it in 3 days but that's a hell of a lot of being stuck in a car. Flying is pretty reasonably priced but then we'd be stuck at their apartment without a vehicle and they're both going to school. Plus we've never met her boyfriend and, while some aspects of him sound really nice, he also sounds a little on the controlling side and I'm not sure if I'd be able to hold my tongue and behave myself.
I dunno. I would really like to go on a vacation after all this cancer torture, though! And I do really like road trips, especially without super long driving days. My thoughts before the San Diego idea came up was trying for something an easy two-ish day's drive out from where we live with lots of good food, a bit of nature-y stuff, and maybe a big zoo, but I haven't actually looked into that, either. It be fun if we could do a cheapish road trip in the fall and then maybe fly out to San Diego when it's more wintery but I'm not sure we can afford that.
Speaking of cancer crap, I'm all anxious because I have a PET scan a week from today. This will be the one that determines if I just have to do 4 more chemotherapies and am done with this bullshit or if we need to do something different. We're hoping for a normalish scan, with normal metabolic activity and smaller lymph nodes (they'll never go back to normal sized because of scarring and such). The last one was SO GOOD so that gives me hope but I am an anxious worrier by nature so, of course, my brain is going all sorts of unpleasant places. What if something weird has happened since the last scan? What if the bleomycin, which was discontinued, was the most effective of my chemotherapy agents and, now that I'm not longer on it, the cancer will grow again? At my last appointment, I wasn't neutropenic, which is awesome (though I'm still living like I am because I don't know if I'm still neutropenic on my nadir days, how long takes them to get within the normal range, etc) but then it makes me wonder if cancer cells are also having a good time too or if it's just my body saying "fuck you, chemotherapy" and trying so hard to be healthy and strong. Ugh. I'm so sick of thinking about it all. I need a vacation from my head.
On a much lighter note, Stanley got a haircut it's so cute! I'm too lazy to post the pics of it on photobucket that Suzie, the groomer, took after she finished but I will later and you will all ooh and ahh at his supreme adorableness :)
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