New life in New here

Is there really someone for everyone? I love my husband but sometimes I feel as thought I’m his second choice. He does treat me right, however he can be brutally honest. I appreciate the honestly over lies but now I cannot help but wonder about the things he has said. He’s told me that I’m not really that beautiful, that’s its my personality that keeps him from cheating on me. I cried forever, but now we are married with a kid. And here I am, watching him worry and stress over his ex like I’m pointless. I think I’m just convenient for him because he’s already blew it with her. I know I’m an insecure baby about it all but I just wish that for once in my life, someone will look at me and think, “wow! She’s beautiful “