First Post | My Introduction | March 17, 2022 in First Post | Thoughts | March 17 Evening

Hi,
I have joined this community because I feel I haven’t been productive since the last few years. My ability to think about stuff has decreased gradually over time. Many a times, I am sad for no reason. Financially I am doing quite well, but I feel that I don’t have the drive to do anything. Since childhood, I have been an introvert. I am good at studies, but my ability to process information in real time has always been poor. Due to it, I always seem foolish when I interact in group discussions regarding anything. These experiences have made current me (always lacking courage, low self-esteem, and one who finds it very difficult to say no to others). I have tried improving myself, but I always fall back into this pitfall. Now, I have decided to review myself more consistently and work slowly to become a better person. My philosophy has always been that “No decision is a bad decision unless you are violent towards others”. When I have a 1-1 discussion or group discussion, people are always so adamant to prove their point of view correct, whereas I have always been the guy who can see that there are both pros and cons to anything, and you cant just state your opinion as facts before researching/understanding both sides of the coin. Due to it, I have found myself indecisive as well at various stages.
However, the time has come for me to change and be the best I can be. So, from now on, I will be writing a journal about how my day went and things I did correct, wrong and about areas of improvement.