Sunday 03/13/22 in Lady Loves the Ocean

Good Morning Sunday!!

I sprung forward this morning. I woke up at 530 a.m. actually around the same time as I have been. We will see how the time change affects me. It usually takes me some time to adjust.

The sun is shining in the kitchen window bright and beautiful. It is going to be a beautiful Sunday. High in the 50’s today. I am planning a few walks. It is supposed to be nice like this all week. We have a chance of rain on Thursday. But that is okay. I can handle rain. We need it.

I didn’t do much of anything yesterday. I did some housework and meal prep. I watched tv and read for a bit. We had sunshine but it was still very cold. It only got up to 30 degrees and it was windy. So I didn’t feel like going outside at all.

I kind of feel like I might be falling into a little bit of a depressive mode. I have dealt with depression before. I think I need to get a handle on things sooner rather than later. I think my biggest problem is I have too much time to think. With the world, the way it is you can’t do much. The price of gas, food, you can’t go out and enjoy yourself. I like being retired but now that I am in better health I don’t like being home so much. Most of my friends don’t live within 20 miles of me. I have one friend here in the court but she does not go out much at all. I need to make some new friends. I need to find something to do with my time. Getting a part-time job has crossed my mind. Work at home maybe. There is no place to volunteer around here. I don’t know what the answers are for me. I just know I don’t like the way I am feeling right now.

I am listening to music while I am writing this. I have the new CD by Aaron Lewis playing on Amazon prime. My son turned me on to this guy. I really like him. I like his voice. But I like his songs. They have meaning for me. He touches me. I will include one of his videos at the end of my post here. I have always loved music. Mainly country. But not limited to that. I listen to music when I walk, drive, to got to sleep sometimes, and around the house. I have a lot of favorite people I listen to. Eric Church, Jason Aldean, Luke Bryan, Cody Johnson, Chris Stapleton, just to name a few. Music soothes my soul. I will probably play Aaron Lewis’ cd while I walk today.

I am 63 yrs old. I will be 64 in July. Do you ever think to yourself I can’t be this old? Really can I be? Since my health has improved I seem to feel that way a lot. And I feel like I have missed so much in my life. And now I wish I could travel and who can afford to. I miss my best friend who lives in Wisconsin. I haven’t seen her in almost 4 years. It breaks my heart. Regrets. Yes, I have many. I don’t want to think it’s too late for me to have a good quality of life. To do things I enjoy. To find new friends. Meet new people. I want to change my life. Where do I start? Life is what you make it. How do I make it what I want it to be? My thoughts are all over the place today.

I am going to stop here. I want to get dressed and get outside. It is currently 40 degrees. It is warm enough for my first walk. I think we will get warmer than in the 50s today. Yay!!! If anyone is reading this I hope you have a blessed Sunday. Maybe I will call my son and go visit them this afternoon.

Later,
Sheri