weeeee can't sleep in feb 2022

currently like 1:30 am and idk just a lot of stuff on my mind. doctor’s appointment is tomorrow but as of now im not that nervous?? im just scared that no one will take me seriously or that ill downplay the seriousness of my condition. idk why i have these spiraling thoughts bc this doctor seems nice and im sure he will try his best but im still just a bit nervous.
i also didn’t get as much homework done as i wanted to for the past couple days. i still feel so unmotivated and on days where i have class the social aspect of it completely drains me out to where i rlly don’t feel like doing anything else. idk… you know what. tomorrow, after my doctor’s appointment im gonna do some actual work and get as much done as i can and that’s a promise. will update on that tomorrow.
praying to God He will give me the strength i need for this. for my appointment but also for my school work.