sooooo.....sjfovbasv in feb 2022

idk. i just have this feeling that i’m behind in life. i recently turned 20 but what does that even mean? i feel like i still act immature for my age and i’m scared i’ll never grow up. it’s a weird feeling within me and it’s been lingering up until this point. ppl around me have reassured me and have said to act as young as u can for as long as possible, but what is the balance of being responsible but also enjoying the hobbies i like when i was a teen? will i be seen as childish if i continue to act the way i do? i just feel like i don’t know how to do a lot of things the people my age do, but i still take care of the things that need to be done. idk…i just don’t wanna be lost in life.