Muscle Memory in Life

My gosh the first thing i do when i wake up is go to instagram but i donr have the app anymore. I did that without thinking. I guess it can be a good thing that i did that because i can translate that muscle memory into something more productive. Im laughing at myself right now because i don’t think what im doing right now is totally productive. I guess its better than instagram because im actually putting a little bit of myself out there (minus my name and at least one picture of myself). More than i did on instagram. Just scrolling and scrolling. Looking at all the positive parts of others lives and comparing it to my own. I guess its braver to put myself out there if im anonymous.
Am i weak for writing all this anonymously? I find that i am more open on here in text than i am in my actual words to love ones and friends.