12/16/21 in Starting over I guess

Up early feed the horses for Colton a little chilly 33 degrees this this morning. He Wanted oatmeal poor kid, he ate it two glasses of milk to get it down, but he ate it, all he said was mom done it a different way. I’m thinking to myself, I’m sure she did no lumps no spots of black. I think that morning coffee alone at the table is the worst sitting waiting for Colton to get ready for the bus. It was talk time for us to plan the day, love my boy, but it was mine and her time together we were working but it was just us.
Colton: Dad, can Casey ride the tractor with me after school, Please
Me: ok, but her mom needs to call me before school is out
Colton: ok
Me: we need to go to the city and (Colton cut me off)
Colton: I can’t miss school and we have to finish the fields (translates to I’m not missing hanging out with Casey)
Me: Colton I’m glad you like school so much but what changed
Colton: I don’t know
Me: we have to go get boots and you need new jeans
Colton: I’m good I have like 8 pairs that fit.
Me: Ok, but you need to find your boot are, we need to get new ones
Colton: * (rolling his eyes) * I, will I don’t want to fight
Me: then find it and explain how you only lost one
Colton: I don’t know
Me: you kind of need it
Colton: I can just wear an extra sock till I find it
Me: finish getting ready the bus is due in 10mins
Colton: are you mad
Me: of course not,just trying to understand my 13yr old son
Colton:* (as he is putting on his jacket and cap his left boot, then picking up his school stuff, walking out the door) * give that up love you and don’t forget you said Casey could come home with me to ride the tractor after school
Spend the rest of the day putting out hay and mixing feed. It’s kind of funny, I still hear Carey call me are I turn around and ask her a question before I realize it is just me. It’s like the place that made me the happiest makes me the saddest until Colton gets home and brings life back into this place the jobs we did together are the hardest. Guess that makes sense when I think about it.
Casey’s mom called so had an extra kid for dinner poor Casey. First time we really talked, she said Colton was the perfect gentleman when he was there. Colton and Casey got here and he was like dad, I need to get started a lot to do before dark pretty sure it was he didn’t want me to embarrass him. They were too cute, walking down the driveway holding hands, until they looked up and seen me. Dressed in their western shirts, blue jeans, Casey in here cowgirl boots Colton in cowboy boot and sock you have thought it was picture day. I remember my first crush I had it worse. Colton and Casey headed to the 8R410 to go disc. At dinner, I think Colton insulated me
Colton: dad, I think they still sell TV dinners it would save you a lot of time
Me: was the spaghetti that bad
Casey: I never had crunchy spaghetti before
At least I’m sure Carey is looking down at us laughing.