anxiety or just anxious in social life and emptiness

im pretty social but i feel like no one cares about me, they just know me probably as a weird girl. its not like i will change myself completely for them, i love me for being me but deep down i there’s a feeling which i don’t know myself what is it??? its a mixture of- “ik im ugly unconfident girl deep inside” and “i don’t care what you think about me, ill just be me” plus “i wish i can change something about me”…its a mixture of these three and idk what is it… i have friends but not really … i love myself but hate myself